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Canciones para la diosa del océano

Goodness what a crazy life we have had together

Truly it was only 3 years

But over these past almost 10

We have been very connected to each others lives

I suppose that changes now

Not really I suppose

Love never dies this I know

As do you

These states we are in now are fluid

Dynamic and ever changing and growing

This is not the last time you will hear my voice

And you will see me again

Oh Jane

Thank you so much

Such a crazy life

It’s Sumer time

Escape to Los Angeles

Play hide and seek with the sun

Get as many people in the car

Drive

DRIVE

Music and sunlight

Dancing

Salt is in the air

And it’s toxic

God damn it we are so prideful!

Come and die with me baby

You still have to tell me what you want

What to do

You have to

Because it’s what you want

That’s what this whole thing is about

I’m doing what I want

I’m holding on

I’m believing

I’m never giving up

If you have no wantings for me

And wish me to simply be gone

Erased

Then that is fate

And one of the cruelest I will have personally known

In your own time

Of course

I beg of you

Please Janet!

Tell me what you want.

I still sit by my window

Now a days I listen to the child’s song

The indistinguishable cries of joy and frustration

Accompanied by the birds and the trees harmony

And I now understand how we created metal rock

Life is so beautiful

Even though breath escapes my lungs

And love evades my heart

There is still beauty

And there always will be

As long as you’re here

That cat has come to nap by my side

All day

With me

Under the sun

On my hands and knees I bow

As does the cat

Pouncing on flies and clawing my hands

She calms me down

A friend

Even in these strange times

Always a friend

On my hands and knees I bow

Someone comes to this bench and eats pumpkin seeds

Someone comes to this bench and smokes weed

Someone comes to this bench and waves their arms in the air

Someone comes to this bench rests foot on log and drinks a beer while the dog plays in the water

Someone comes to this bench and cries

Someone comes to this bench and speaks only of you

Someone comes to this bench and never speaks a word

Someone comes to this bench with Someone and they sit

No patience

I Just Keep Walking

Sometimes I’m made to stop

And realize again as I stand

But it’s in that moment

It’s in The Moment

Where my flesh meats the earth

Jesus Christ!

You’re a lucky son of a bitch

Breathe

To better understand

My fruit is too ripe

Nurtured love rotting

Seeds unseeded

Let me fall to meet the earth

Austin Wheeler!

You’re a lucky son of a bitch

boottytickle:

I knew this bad lil thing once upon a time

Bold yet shy

Excited seeming nervous

Beauty portrayed as pain

She kept to herself more often than not

Mostly because everyone was always trying to invade her sacred space

Attempts to tame a mustang

New to many boring places then

One after another

These places gave little to the imagination and too much to reality

She longed for peace and freedom

And for her parents to look at her and tell her how immensely proud they are of her

And as usual some dreams came true others not

She found her peace she found her freedom

It’s roots to be uprooted not long after

As it often goes

But not after a good show

She journeyed north to find the seed she came from

She found it and decided to decide later what to do with it

For its story and history were too tragic for this young rose

Then East over the Atlantic to the old world

Exercising truly reckless and youthful behavior

And beginning to see that not just blood makes family

After she went south to her fathers land

And together understood what it means to be where you are from

All the while learning the love of this world and what family truly means

And seeing her own strength manifest before her very eyes

You should have seen the looks she would give

But all good things must come to an end

And the leaf must make the fall back to the earth

She traveled back north in search of the love and pride her parents promised her

But found desperation’s new solitude instead

In desperation she finds her courage again

Though she still could not shake her pain

Yet in that simple act of courage her life has sprung a new

Flowers and fruits blossoming that she had no idea even grew in her garden

And so she resides in the north nurturing her soul and those around her

Building strength for what lies ahead.

Now I’m sure you are asking the question how I know this story

Well let’s say I am peace I am freedom

Here is the truth

I am no creator

I am the created

Most of my kin have some ability

Some sense or perception that allows them

To create

To see this world with their own eyes

And help others see it too

They tell me I’m like them

They sometimes tell me I’m more than them

I tell them I love them

And to shut up

Hopefully

And yet you will find me here

Sitting on the ground beneath the palm

Stretching my body

Talking with the sun

Paying graces to all that I lack

For now I know I am alive

There it is again

The sound of the world

He’s back

Always busy this one

Rumbling beneath my legs

Flying down the highway

Inside underground tunnels

To remind you

You ain’t Jesus Christ

Sit down

I am my mistakes

I can never lose if I never gain

I am filth

That is my shadow

Beneath every word

Every action

It lies

Casted by the light of what I wish to be

Forgiveness

Vulnerability

Honesty

Do you see how long it is?

The devil is always busy

I’m sorry to be always dredging up the past

But I can never forget

The first steps I took out of that car

Before the air could even greet me

I was welcomed by your embrace

So genuine so warm

This life can be so cold

I miss the sun

Never

That’s when

cain-thewandered:

I need another death

I need to kill this life

Or more of lift it’s rotting carcass off my chest

Bury the remains

And the burn the house down

None of these things are true

I love this place

But I need to be thrown back into it

The crowd

The water

That fire

And no I do not know why

Maybe I need to prove it one last time

And lose it all once again